Its been awhile since my last blog. I suppose I need to blog now sinc things I can't seem to hold in much more. Here are a few things:
1) weight is at 158. Stresful eating has taken a toll on me.
2) joined a new gym because they are open at 5 in the morning and it works perfectly for me.
3) got a new job, demotion but I am lesz stressed, the eating will stop and I work with two ladies that are awesome.
4) I met with a "medium" who really didn't convince me to be authentic. I think she has a gift but just not in tuned with her gift just quite yet.
5) my sister-in-law has moved back from Florida!
6) I ran my 2nd 5k in 37:11 time.
7) took my first Metra train ride
8) I've been making macrame bracelets.
9) you recall that earlier this year I lost my dog smokey. I got a puppy by the name of Frankie and then I got a puppy named Charlie. I had to give Charlie away because she demanded big time attention which I could not give 24/7. I'm sad to say that I have now lost Frankie due to a rare blood disorder.
It's killing me inside. I am actually mad at God for taking her for me. Questioning why would he do that to me, to take her so young (1 year old). Am I such a bad person that he feels the need to make me sad? Why couldn't I be rich to say "money is no object save my dog" yet I was unable to have the funds to save her. I even questioned if I was being hexed. My friend nadine told me that I shouldn't be mad at God and that he took Frankie be cause she took the place of a loved one. Animals love unconditionally and she saved a life. I'm not sure what the reason is but if that's the case it still doesn't help the emptiness I feel now that she's gone. I want to say that I feel as if I had a miscarriage. They are there one minute and the next they are not and its completely out of your hands. That's life whether we like it or not.
As you can see, its been a challenging year if you have read my earlier posts. I'm praying things just get better and brighter.
I'm adding some pictures of my mentions above:
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