OMG! So today is Tuesday, July 31st. Yesterday was the first of many new things that await me! Yesterday started my all liquid diet before surgery which is next Monday. Im on an 800 caloric diet. The reason for this diet is to initiate rapid weight loss which will result in a decrease in my liver. This is supposed to make surgery easier for me and my surgeon. It also lets me become more familiar with the full liquid diet that I will be doing after my surgery for two weeks after my discharge. UGH! lol. Im supposed to have 60 grams per day of protein. My liquid diet consists of water, crystal light, decaf tea, sugar free jello and sugar free popsicles in addition to 800 calories in full liquids. I have a choice of 4 1/2 cans of High protein Slim fast, 5 1/2 packets of Carnation "no sugar" Instant Breakfast drink with fat free or 1% milk, 5 individual cartons of Atkins Advantage daily, or 4 1/2 bottles of "Glucose Controlled" Boost daily. I opted for the carnation instant breakfast. Its not that bad as I thought it would be. I realized yesterday as well that I will be without any food intake for a total of 3 weeks straight! INSANE!!!
I did pretty good yesterday at work. I had my carnation for breakfast and for lunch. I drank water in between. If anyone knows me, Im not much of a water drinker but I've been doing good for the past couple of months even before considering surgery. I got home after work yesterday and made dinner, my normal routine. I made flautas (small rolled up tacos with meat in them). It smelled so good BUT I didnt cheat! I was very proud of myself! Im not gonna lie, I was tempted, I was drooling, I was fighting my inner demons of wanting "just one" but I won in the end and beat the demon! I was feeling hungry but I waited til later in the evening to have my carnation. Sandy brought home a 4-pack of sugar free jello for me. I will be snacking on that when I get home. Even Chewy came in the kitchen at one point and asked me if "I cheated". I was proud to say "no!"
So today, Tuesday, the second day of my liquid diet, I think its gonna be pretty smooth. Yes I know, Im gonna be hungry, but its normal. I bought diet jello this morning from the cafe. I have to believe that even thou this journey is gonna be hard, I'm gonna benefit from it in the long run. Im going to be where and how I wanna be, "SKINNY". What journey is easy? NONE! Im still contemplating taking a whole body picture. Its rather embarrassing but like I said, Im still contemplating. I havent weighed myself either, Im guessing that when I meet with the dietician on Friday they will weigh me. I'll let you know how that goes!
I spoke with my niece Michelle lastnight. She's gonna have her surgery in January. She asked me what I was looking forward to after my weight loss. I had not really given much thought to that question. When I asked her, she immediately said "shopping in the little section" of a store. I would guess that would be the ideal answer for anyone with weight loss. But when we hung up I sat there asking myself what am I looking forward to. So I came up with this: Im looking forward to looking in the mirror and seeing my face thin, my neck slender, and my collar bone visible. What I see in the mirror is different from what people see. I mentioned this in an earlier blog. Secondly: Im looking forward to seeing people who judged me by my weight rather than the person I am inside. Im gonna tell them Im still the same person just in a slimmer body! Lastly, yes, I am going to look forward to putting on outfits that I have always dreamt of, sexy dresses, full body jumpers, nicer bathing suits, halter tops, even attempt to walk in sexy heels. Like I said, it's going to be a first of many firsts! :)
Thats all for now! OVER AND OUT LIL BUDDY! :)
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