Howdy! Today is Thursday, August 2nd and Wednesday was an uneventful nite. The family had left overs so it was a good thing that I didnt have to spend time in the kitchen which is now in my eyes the "enemy". This morning I prepared a crock-pot chicken soup so I can avoid the kitchen once again today. That soup is gonna smell so good when I get home. We usually eat soup with bread and butter and boy am I gonna be bummed out about that one as well! I put lots of carrots, half an onion, green squash, cilantro, potatoes and spices. YUMMMO! Too bad I cant even have that!

I did however have a slip-up of the sort. I swear, I love food! Who doesnt! I usually have my protein shake around 7'ish so Im not starving by the time I go to bed. I have to admit that I had a damn cracker, just 1 saltine cracker which I nibbled on like if I was on a deserted island. I had it with my protein shake. I felt horrible afterwards. Not to mention that these damn shakes make my tummy rumble, make me real gasey, and what I think may be a fart is actually a need to go to the bathroom. Many close calls last night! Eewww yea I know but Im keeping it real!

I spoke to one of my besties Rita, she told me about two other mutual friends who underwent a total bypass and the other one had the lap band. Both success stories, both had expereinces with food differently. Rita always makes me laugh, she accepts me and knows how much I love my food! lol. Its always good to hear from her.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with the dietician, Ashley, shes really cool and knows her stuff! After that appointment, I have pre-admission testing at the main hospital. After that, its a 3-day count down to Monday. I think my surgery is scheduled for 7:30 in the morning which most likely will mean that I will have to be at the hospital at 5:30 in the morning. Not nervous yet, still very much excited. I have been trying to find videos on youtube of people experiencing bariactric surgery. I flip thru channels on tv to see if I see stories of people losing weight. I guess I just want to know what they went thru, how they felt, their outcome, etc.

I dont believe I will be blogging after this. My next entry will most likely be after surgery to let you know the events of that day, how I feel, and if most importantly, if Im still hungry! lol

C'ya soon!

P.s. As I read this before posting, I do have a fear...its not surgery, my fear is my food intake after surgery. A year from now and sofourth, I dont want to overeat, I want to be skinny. I dont want to have a "slip-up" like I did with 1 cracker. Not sure if you understand what I mean, but this is the only way I can explain it. I dont want to want food like I do right now with this liquid diet. Im gonna be scared of food, fear that it will make me fat again. Make sense? I dunno, this is what's spinning a web in my head right now. :(