Random thoughts...

So my scarf business has been pretty good (thank God). I'm selling scarfs at a minimal pace which I'm thankful for BUT many people ask about a "website" that they can go to for reference, to see what I have, etc. Since the beginning of me making and selling scarf's this has been the constant question...do you have a website? I'm lucky I even made any business cards! With that being said....I took the leap and inquired about creating a "website". Just typing it SCARES the shit outta me! I signed up for a 30-day free trial and if I like it I can continue with the "website" for 10.00/month fee. Not too bad right? Creating the website seems overwhelming right now, I got as far as just naming it. It will be MYRTLE BLING. The domain I have purchased and it will be www.myrtlebling.com. When its up and running and my anxiety dies down, I will post it everywhere for people to view. Just thinking about it right now has me with major ANXIETY!!! What matters right now is that I took the leap and PRAY that I don't flop.

I've come to realize that whatever dreams I may have, my FEAR is the biggest factor in any of my decision making. I'm so used to "dreaming" and not "leaping" because my mind is so programed to "FAILING" at anything I try. Reading that sentence makes me want to cry. I don't know if I'm super emotional today or the reality of "failing, my way of thinking, lack of encouragement/moral support and anything in between" prevents me from wanting to succeed in anything that pops in my head. I have dreams, I want things, but my FEAR ALWAYS gets the best of me. It sucks feeling alone in times like this. I wish I had someone to go thru with it all.

Tomorrow, Friday March 22nd they are having a fundraiser for my niece and the other young girl that passed away. I'm hoping for a big turn out (which I'm guessing it will be because they knew so many and were loved by even more). I'll post pictures next week of the turn out.

Memorial Benefit - March 22nd, 2013

In Memory of Sanj & Mish

Okay, I'm at work, I'm already crying and I don't need people to ask me "what's wrong". These are my random thoughts for the day and it's not even 10:00 yet! :(