I started playing softball on May 23rd and it's been pretty fun, it always is really. I've been looking for a job within my facility as well as outside. It's just that bad now. I feel Im a little bit more stressed than I need to be, my wanting "food" seems to be greater because of the added stress. I do however have an appointment with the plastic surgeon tomorrow, to decide whether or not to have the excess skin removed from my abdominal area. Really the insurance has the final say so in the whole matter. Im keeping my fingers crossed that things go in my favor and I can have this outpatient procedure soon rather than later.
I will be posting on montly blog with a picture as routine BUT I came across this picture that was taken back in May 2012 BEFORE I decided to attend the bariactric seminar. I was sitting in the backyard playing with my dogs and was going to play a game on my husbands phone. This particular picture he has on his background and I asked him "why do you have this GOD awful picture as a background". He replied "what's wrong with it? I think its a beautiful picture, the best one of you I have ever had." Though the words he just expressed were actually one of the few words EVER expressed to me about me in general, this picture made me cry. Just looking at it, I feel that I still look that way. I tell you, a person's mind is their own worse enemy. We at least my mind is my worse enemy. I suppose it will continue to be until I can actually can appreciate what I look like in the mirror. Anyways, this picture was a rude awakening/flashback of how I DONT EVER WANT TO LOOK LIKE AGAIN!
Sorry, I cant figure out how to rotate the picture, grrr!
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