Anniversary Blues

So today is Wednesday, September 19th. Yesterday marked my 20th wedding anniversary. My husband didnt even remember. In his defense he forgets everything and Im usually the one that has to remind him of everything from paying the bills to a up coming birthday. Anniversary I guess wouldnt be any different from anything else I would have to remind him about. I didnt thou, I didnt remind him. Maybe its just me being oversensitive. Maybe anniversaries are overrated and just another "hallmark" holiday in a man's eyes. Whatever the case may be, I didnt remind him. Am I mad? Not as mad as I was last year when he totally forgot and I reminded him in anger. This year, Im not even mad, maybe a little hurt but like other things, I'll deal with it and move on.

How's the weight loss going? Well, I noticed in the mirror that I am losing my butt. It's getting rather flat and my husband noticed the same thing so I know its not my imagination. I refuse still to get on the scale so if your asking if I have lost pounds, I really couldnt tell ya. I notice that some of my clothes are feeling loose. Do I feel like I have lost weight? Not really. Last weekend I went out with some grammar school friends and they both said I look like I have slimmed down some. I honestly still dont see what I want to see. Just this morning a girl that works in my facility said I look like I have "dropped some pounds". Made me happy. Whats the difference between my friends telling me and another person telling me about my weight? Difference is "friends" I feel will tell you what you want to hear because they wanna make you happy. This acquaintance has nothing to gain by lying or not. That's the difference. I wont be taking another picture until October 6th.

I joined two softball teams. Last Sunday I only played one inning. Why? Well this is the first time I ever experienced what "dehydration" felt like. I was warming up playing catch and noticed that my front thighs were tightening up. I figured it was because I didnt warm up long enough. First inning came around and I could barely run to get the ball in the field. Next thing you know we came in from the field and I was up to bat. I hit the ball and when I ran, I could not move. My thighs tightened up so bad I could not run or even walk. The most horrible "charlie horse" I have ever experienced. I was out the rest of the game. I stretched, I massaged, you name it I tried it. Some player on my team asked if I had drank water at all that day? I sat and thought about it and realized that I had not drank water since Saturday afternoon or anything form of liquid for that matter. Here I am Sunday afternoon and still had not consumed any liquid. This man told me that I made myself dehydrated and my muscles were letting me know. He asked if my mouth was dry and it was! He said I was dehydrated and needed to get luquids in me soon and always have liquids anytime of the day. You recall, my surgeon told me that the day he discharged me. "You better have water with you at all times and be drinking it all day long". WOW! Who would've thought that it would catch up with me. Im not saying that I have started drinking water, its hard for me, Im not a water drinker BUT it needs to be done and I know this. Im trying. I hope Thursday at my other game I dont experience the same situtation again.

My eating? Still eating about a cup of food. Im still vomiting certain foods or when I have overdone it. I was given permission by my dietician to eat a slice of wheat bread. I can also have a cup of coffee with low fat milk and a sugar substitute. I notice that im craving a cup of coffee every morning. I dont know if it's because it satisfies my sweet tooth but I'll take it! The other day here at my work they had a bake sale. I walked up to the table, looked at every single thing they had on that table and very proud to say that I walked away from the table. It may not seem like a big deal but to me it is because I love love pastries! Im loving the Oikos greek yogurt in vanilla. Its so flavorful. Im eating alot of watermelon and other fruits to curve my sweet tooth. Its been pretty stressful with my daughters. All three of them have been trying my patience. To top it off Im a stressful eater and with all the stress they have been giving me, Im proud to say that I have not ate anything to substitute my stress for hunger.

Okay, I guess thats all for right now. C'ya soon.