One Month After Surgery

So today is one month after surgery. I had two appointments yesterday with the pysch doctor and the dietician. Was still feeling pretty bummed out about the weight gain. I weighed in yesterday at 199. I expressed to the pysch doctor the anxiety, disgust, and the embarrassement that I was feeling. How can someone who just had weight loss surgery gain weight??? She stated that what I was feeling is all natural, many patient's feel anxiety. Many patients are obssessed with getting on the scale to see if the "number" goes down. I on the other hand am not obssessed with the scale. I only get on the scale when I have my doctor appointments. My enemy is the mirror which I have to see every morning and every night. That mirror shows me my progress without even mentioning a number. Why on earth I decided to get on the scale on Tuesday is beyound me. The visit with the pysch doctor helped alot. And assured me that in three month (November) I'll be less stressed and will be able to chuckle about this month's experience. She's a great doctor.

This is me today, one month after surgery.

Ashley my dietician broke it down for me. We went over my food intake. So what I thought was good eating in reality was bad/hidden calories. My skinny-minney bagels, my granola bars, my egg-white sandwhiches from subway (just to name a few) are all BAD! Why? Breads, carbs, etc. This is why I could've gained the weight. Also, with my intake of vitamins, being constipated or even water gained could've played a factor in the weight gain. I think it was the bagels, granola bars and the sandwiches from subway that made me gain. Ashley stated that I have to stay away from all breads, pastas, sweets, etc. All the bad things that I was so used to eating really has to be rid of in my life. I have to concentrate on veggies (raw or steamed), fruits/nuts (minus cashews and peanuts), protein (chicken, turkey, ham, tuna,) and diary (greek yogurt, cottage cheese, cheese). I have to stay away from red meat as well. I still have to watch the intake of sugar and pay attention on items and the protein availability in their substance.

Tuesday was a horrible day and I'm glad its over. Meeting with the pysch and the dietician gave me peace of mind and all I can do is move on with the knowledge that they shared with me and encouragement that my progress will be noticeable in time, not a month's time, but in months to come. My weight loss is not going to happen in a month let alone over night but it will happen!

Im still walking and also bikeriding. Yes, both get me out of breathe but it needs to be done regardless. Im also joining a fall softball team which starts this Sunday and Im excited about that as well! Well thats it for today. See you soon!