So Im not feeling it today. Let's just say it all stems from issues with a cellular phone. I have been experiencing issues with my cellphone since last Thursday. I took it in and it was determined that I need to have a replacement. So I got the replacement yesterday, contacts, pictures were successfully saved and I arranged the icons and apps successfully. Okay so I thought I did everything that needed to be done to the phone. NOT SO! I totally forgot to set my damn alarm. How could I forget to set that up! So needless to say, woke up late, feeling rushed, feeling disorganized, feeling like I need to start the day over!
I also noticed that its October 2nd and in 4 more days I will need to post a picture up so you can see my status. Believe it or not, I'm stressing about posting pictures. I honestly dont see any changes and if there are not changes then comes the disappointments of viewing picture status. I feel emotional today. Im pondering if my menstrual cycle is coming (even though I have had a total hysterectomy) I have this huge pimple on my chin, I'm emotional (did I mention emotional?) and as I sit here at my counter I look down and see this blubber just sitting there. Ugh! I had a friend of mine take a picture of me today, yea I wont be posting that picture either. Looking rather bummy, disorganized, just down right bummy. I want to take a picture in something other than the color black because I want you to see the real transformation rather have the fat be hidden from the color black. Im wearing a torqouise blouse today and a gray skirt BUT for some reason, I just look like I got out of bed with the clothes Im in. Hard to explain, just bummy/wrinkely. Im hoping that I feel better tomorrow because today is pretty much shot to hell!
I even contemplated looking for a scale to weigh myself since many people ask me what my weight is. Im scared I didnt loose any or worse yet, GAINED! The way Im feeling today, perhaps Im better off not finding a scale since Im feeling blah today. Having to see dissapointment on the scale just might send me over the edge today. Funny, that song "dont push me cuz Im close to the edge, Im trying not to loose my head" came to mind as I typed that line! LOL. On a bright note, I ate half a cup of cottage cheese with a slice of a peach, I poured my water in my 16oz glass and Im currently munching on some smokehouse almonds. For lunch I will have a bean burritto (protein but yes fat as well because of the masa) but its better than real fatty foods.
C'ya soon!
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